I miss

having someone do things for me.
not because I ask them to, but
just because they want to.
I miss being told that I am beautiful
not out of obligation, but
out of appreciation.

she

only understands because she wants to get in your pants. 
please don't be foolish.

do not

turn into an assholes, nina.

Boredom, for me, can be quite dangerous.
I apologize in advance.

I

am trying to be everything that you need me to be
while
holding on to fragmented pieces of me
is
that shit even possible?

Hello

"Will you come sit in my seat so that I may sit in your lap?" is what I asked him he did I did I straddled him locking him in rocking on him rendering him helpless to my sexual prowess kissed his lips lifted my skirt above my hips unzipped his fly then welcomed him inside Hello

Our love

as we know it is about to change.
It'll either get better. Or it's going to get worse.  Either way it's about to change.

Truth is...

Everybody wants to place the blame, but nobody wants to take responsibility for their own shit.
Truth is we all could do better.
all around.

The me that I am on a daily basis, is not the me that i am when I am with him
she's different
my polar opposite
guarded
heavily
distant withdrawn uncertain and insecure
that is not the me that i want to be with he

dirty looks

i need to pray.
i really don't like that chick.

So busy looking at everyone else, that you've missed what's right in front of you.
One of these days you're going to see me.
Perhaps by then it'll be too late.

Bored

With everything. Time for something new.

Forgive me Father for I have sinned

"Be with someone who is proud to have you"

Watch "SOLANGE - LOSING YOU" on YouTube

I'm not the one you should be makin your enemy...

"I'm all for the team as long as I can be a part of the planning"

Yes!! What she said.

today I will try something different
today I will remove the layers
the layers that clothe and cover
uncover my deepest insecurities imperfections and complexities
today I will stand
naked
open
unarmed
bearing all that is hidden
in me
today I will be 
vulnerable

I
will never
apologize
for loving you
too hard.

Last night

just may have been my undoing

Seriously though...

fuck tough love.

Inevitable withdrawal

" We can’t survive on just love. If we do, then we die."

Solange Knowles - Sleep In The Park

It's good to have someone to talk to when it seems there is no one to talk to.

You say that its mine, but is it all mine? The parts apart from the part that is your penis.
Your heart? Your mind? Your thoughts? Your dreams?
Your arms? Your hands? Your lips? Your tongue?
Are they all mine?
Or were you merely referring to the long thick line that aligns in line with your knee caps?

but you're too scared and i'm too damaged

http://abluesforbrklyn.tumblr.com/post/32695242024/scatteredtealeaves-but-youre-so-scared-and

It takes nothing to tell someone that you miss them or that you love them.
Especially if you mean it.
But I suppose showing and telling are two totally different things.

Communication

is everything. Without it there is nothing.

at work, my boredom knows no bounds...