My Truths...

TRUTH…

The truth is I really want and need to do something different with my life, but I just don’t know where to begin…

The truth is that while I do appreciate being able to say that I have a job, I’m really beginning to STRONGLY dislike the whole corporate office environment. It’s every man for himself. And while that may work for some, it doesn’t work for all.

The truth is that I really do love the father of my child, and wish, both for T's sake, and for my own selfish reasons, that we would actually get it together for the BETTERMENT of our child…

The truth is I really do get lonely whenever he’s not around…

The truth is that I could really do without the bullshit of bullshitters and THAT is why I choose to stay away…

The truth is I do get weak in times of loneliness and therefore have a tendency to reach out to those who are unworthy of my reach just to feel appreciated…

The truth is I have become ever so lazy over the past few months…

The truth is I waste way too much money on cabs in the morning because of said laziness

The truth is I am 31 years old and am just now learning to love who I am…

Truth is I am still learning my worth and am sometimes bitter toward Carl for not being around to tell me just how special and great I was as a child…

Truth is I am still searching for that validation from a man…still looking for that father figure.

Truth is I am still fighting and pushing through bouts of self doubt.

Truth is I am human, I make mistakes...

Truth is while, my heart may be bruised, I have no regrets and wish him nothing but the best in all of his endeavors...

Truth is I am so very ready to settle down and make love, and life, and happiness, and peace, and build something great...but I keep letting my fears, a dubious distinction at best, get in the way...

Truth is I still kind of have a crush on him and sometimes get the urge to kiss him whenever he's around...

Truth is I hate his "closed-off" or "shut-down" moments and am often tempted to just walk away...

Truth is "nobody can hurt me unless I give them permission..."

Truth is I am learning me and loving me in spite of me…

To Be Cont…

nina